So, the marriage is over. We are now wondering what the hell to do with the house. To those that don’t know me, you most probably don’t know the whole story. Best not to really…
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It is strange how, when things start happening that I write in this blog less? It’s even weirder as they are/could be life changing. What happens when you fall out of love with someone who you have loved for six years? Everything changes.
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I broke a cardinal rule last night, I went out in the middle of the week. If you are thinking, “well if that’s all he has to worry about” then yes, I am slightly sad. Jonny, a very cool temp who we got a few weeks ago who is subsequently on his last week
, invited us (Polly n Tori) to the Hub to watch his band play. They were amazing! and although we didn’t stay because the rest of it was mostly kid bands and one good but immensely Emo group, I was glad we paid £4 for the priveledge of watching them play at the Hubs last gig. Well, last gig as ‘the Hub’.
I drank too much pear cider and made a tit of myself. yea well…
Tonight I am in and chillaxing (a horrid word but strangely catchy), and then tomorrow going out for a birthday party. Then Friday I am off.
yey!
This weekend is Glasto, so I’ll be glued to the box most of it. -
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So, ultra minimal eh? It’s like showing people around my house, after stripping it bear and painting everything white. So let’s keep it brief. Weekend has been great apart from today when everything got a bit stressful and stupid. Realised that it was because I was tired. Laura is out again, tried talking to her earlier about ‘us’ and her going out but she’s happy, and I can’t be kicking her down for wanting happiness. Tomorrow is another day, main goal will be to get the last lot of recordings done for the screencast project and dealing with what comes through the door. Which could be anything, including a large elephant with a banana phobia or a bear with athletes foot.
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I wonder if I have to write something in this box… I don’t really feel like it. Argh.
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Confusing title? Yes it’s meant to be. It’s called effect and, I expect I have got the wrong effect as I expect it’s meant to be ‘affect’, I don’t care. Nope, not one bit. I am throwing my doubt to the wind and hoping that no one is urinating in my direction, or is that meant to be I am urinating in to the wind and hoping that no one is throwing doubt at me? I wonder if there is an equally good analogy that doesn’t involved urine?
So much has happened over the last few months I am struggling to keep up. Today has been manic mentally, not too bad physically but I have been trying to plan things in my head, work things out, analyse them and generally make sense of an increasingly confusing world. Emotionally, professionally and pretty much anything else that ends with ‘ally’ has gone all weird and bizarre.
I can’t go in to too much detail, but it seems like after months of stability and happy ‘plodding on’ life has decided that it’s not going to settle for a bit of mundane mundanity, it’s gone and decided that in fact the world needs a bit of WTF. For the uninitiated wtf stands for ‘what the fuck’, and I don’t often swear here but yes. I have the imprinted on my mind nearly every day, trying to make sense of things and people around me that don’t quite make sense.
Either I am slowly losing my grip, or everyone around me is losing theirs.
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Performed at HOOT last night. Not sure how it went down, but I don’t think I really raised the roof. I know these things are meant to be a learning experience but I wish I’d have a nice experience with this whole poetry performing thing that I am so passionate about. Still not sure about reading things out, seems to be taking a long time to properly work it out. I think I just get up there and read it out rather then talk before the poem.
Not really feeling positive about anything at the moment, had a great afternoon with Tori at her hidden gem of a house in the middle of the darkest wood’s I’ve ever visited. Wondering why the rest of the world seems so dark at the moment. Melodramatic? Yes.
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It’s 4:43am, and after being woken by Laura as usual coming to bed, I am faced with a realisation that after three months of knowing that our marriage in is in trouble, time has not stepped in and dealt a healing hand. In fact, it’s worse then it was and she is desparate for a week away from me. I can’t sleep, well I have a bottle of Kalms here so that’ll help if I do decide to try and catch some winks.
All this a matter of days before we go away to Cornwall, I have abandoned hope of making it what it was, but I still have hope we can live together, at least amicably for a little longer. We have cats, a mortgage, a nice little home. But sadly the spark has long since gone.
I am in no financial situation to start living somewhere else, and if we do end up going our separate ways, I’ll most probably have to declare myself bankrupt or insolvent or disappear with a new identity somewhere exotic. Hooray for life in general.
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I am suprised no one has written a review of the Yann Tiersen gig last Sunday that took place in Exeter. I like short reviews at best so this is going to be the shortest review you’ll read. Ever.
Friggin’ amazing.
There. That was short wasn’t it?
I am fine, I am very busy writing, so will update properly when I get a chance.
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I am not in a great frame of mind, so I’ll keep it brief. Went up to Aber for the weekend, back home now with the kats and my wife. Great to see everyone, I am suprised how much Aber has changed. Progress versus the ideal state of stagnation within the minds of those who studied there.
However, I am depressed by people’s driving and the assumption that you are a lesser being by what car you drive. Are we all this shallow? If I could, I would sell the car as a statement protest against the use of vehicles as a status symbol. You can tell we own a small car?
I went to see what was left of Llanbadarn Campus, the halls are gone now, see the facebook group for pictures of the tragic moments.
I’ll leave it there as I am already starting to rant.
